5 months

Yup, finally I reached 5 months pregnancy! Morning sickness has subsided, but still has the nausea from time to time. I still throw out time to time. Morning, sometimes I eat light or heavy. Lunch definitely heavy and dinner very little. Yet, I still gained 2kg in a month. Last visit, my weight is 44kg. But this month, the weight is 46kg….

After few times scan, finally we get to know the gender of the baby!! Is a baby boy, going to name him Attis! Now, I can shop some mitten and socks, new clothes for him too. However, he will be using his elder brother’s clothes more of the time.

 Both babies are the same… they like to play hide and seek with us. Smurf was the same, unable to confirm his gender for the first few months. Now Attis also the same!! But I really hope the morning sickness won’t last till I enter the labour room. I pray for hard for that.

Bump is getting bigger compared to first pregnancy.  I feel the tightness most of the time, like you have bloated stomach!! So suffer. I will still make the same comment, how ?? How those people can have so many kids, how they make it? I really salute to them!

To me pregnancy is like disease/sickness for 9 months! I was restricted to do a lot of things and eat some of the food. I really don’t think I can’t go for another pregnancy! I can’t take it anymore. It is depressing. I am so glad the doctor understands my situation and offer that I can see her for talk anytimes! Finally, someone understand me!! I am so glad.

Now I pray baby will be healthy, that’s all I wish. Yup, I was a bit disappointed few months ago when I found out the baby might be boy rather than girl. But I managed to overcome the disappointment! Now, important –baby is healthy

Last pregnancy, I was so careful with my food consume. I control hard not to have cold drinks, no beef, no those ‘cold’ fruits. But this round, I can’t. I can’t control much due to appetite. I drink a lot of cold drinks everyday, cold milk, cold tea, cold soft drink, I even have tea so often, I have beef too. I couldn’t help…. Any food I can take, I just go for it. I am fruits lover, but this round I am so picky!! I should say I don’t like to eat fruits!!!

Pls pray for my baby! Smurf is 21 months now, he is mischievous boy!! He helps to cheer me up a lot during this hard time! I adore him so much and thank you for his love to me!

Smurf at 20 months

Smurf turned 20 months… Now he is little man.

But he got give once he turned 20 months old… He fell from a sofa and hit at the edge of his table, a deep cut on his right eyebrow!! We got the called from SIL around 5 something… by the time we rush back is around 7pm and no more bleeding.. Had a quick dinner and rushed to clinic, waited for 2 hours for our turn. The doc announced unable to do the stitches as is more than 2 hours. No one inform us about it and we were not aware of it. We don’t know if want to stitch need to perform within 2 hours.  And first place, I don’t even know need to stitch!! I thought once stop bleeding, just apply some medication will do.

However, little man still active as usual. But he know he did something wrong, dare not get pamper from me when I reached home. He only cried when doc performed the cleaning and applied the ointment.

We will told to monitor him for 48 hours, ensure not vomitting, dizzy and pale!!

Another day, when I was a bit better, I baked honey cornflakes… Why I chosen this, cause is the easy to bake and prepare. Little man loves it so much, he went near to oven to smell it!! After baked, waited to cool down, he requested to have it.

I gave him some and he wanted for more, more and more… Therefore, I have to hide it!!  See what happened when I left it on the table?? Little man pull his chair and climb up the table to have it!

Since I am having ms, little man is so care for me. Once daddy prepare the dinner, he will come and get me from the room. He will hug me when I am cold, he requests me to rest on his lap, he pat my chest after I have a bad throw out. So many things, so many adorable things he do to me, make me so touch!

 

1st Pregnancy vs 2nd Pregnancy -2

8 March, finally 10 weeks…. waiting so long… When see other pregnant women is like so fast. But when come to my turn, never ending… so slow like a turtle!

After 3 weeks stayed at home, I was back to work. Still struggle very hard with the morning sickness. Vomitting sensation has reduced but I still couldn’t eat much and have no appetite. Biggest problem, don’t know what to eat… This I can’t take it, that is not suit me… Really headache. At least previous pregnancy, I still managed to have Protein drink. This round, totally out!

I still look very pale, very sick and weak. Everybody noticed I lost weight! I am tired, couldn’t have good rest at night. Even no more vomitting, but the feel like want to vomit is still there. I encounter uncomfortable, like something goes wrong with my body… I feel a bit dizzy, tired, my tongue taste funny. I couldn’t drink much water. I used to drink 2L water in the office. But now, 1L only! I feel like dehydrated… but I couldn’t help it, I just can’t move my tongue! I also become sensitive to smell and taste!

Sometimes I really feel down, why? If without ms, it would show that I am pregnant? I cried few times which I know I not suppose too.

Let’s hope everything will be better after 1st trimester!

Morning Sickness

I have severe morning sickness. I think is not right to name it morning sickness, cause I have it 24/7! Yup, you didn’t read wrongly, is 24/7. Therefore I think it will appropriate to name it 24/7 morning sickness.

AND, morning sickness doesn’t last only in 1^st trimester! For my last pregnancy, I had it till I entered to labour room.

Yup, 1^st trimester was so bad, I was on medical leave for 1 ½ months. People kept telling me everything will be fine after 1^st trimester. I was waited patience for the day to come so I can enjoy my food. But it even came. Yup, the throwing out subsided after 1^st trimester, but I still throw out off and on.

Everyday after work, I held the plastic bag in the car. After dinner, rush back so I can puke in the bathroom! It was so awful!

Imagine, I was just pregnant not sick. BUT physically, I am sick for 9 months. I dare not go anywhere. Home to office, home to my mum place, home to hospital for check up, that’s my life for the previous pregnant life! My tongue tasted funny, like metallic taste. Anything I ate also taste funny!

But the moment I gave birth, immediately, immediately everything back to normal. I was so glad.

NOW, the cycle starts again. I don’t know this round how long will it last. I have no idea! Last round even I can’t eat, I still managed to drink the soya protein drink. This round, totally out! Therefore, I lost weight, from 46kg to 43kg. I tried to force myself eat a bit, frequent but still can’t bring up the weight.

I really hope, morning sickness will go away asap! Wish me luck!

p/s: Am I scare of morning sickness? Oh yes, I am phobia with it! It terrified me!!

1st Pregnancy vs 2nd Pregnancy -1

This round, I don’t have the bloated stomach 2 weeks before period and have body ache, I guessed I hit the ‘jackpot’ Those are the unusual sign of period which I have it regularly before period. But I tried to deny it. WHY?? cause I scare if I admitted, the morning sickness will kick in! So before the e morning sickness (ms) kick in, I eat all the food I can, try to enjoy as much as possible.

Tadaaaa…. ms kicked in just on the day of CNY. I have no mood to enjoy any food. I was so dizzy, tired and nausea all day long. My mum tried to cook my favourite food, non of them I can had it!

What’s the different between 2 ms? 1st pregnancy, I am so cold, I need to wear few layers of clothes on top of them with blanket. I couldn’t wake up from the bed. I threw out badly and can’t eat. I dream of food but I couldn’t eat. Most of time, I was on my bed and slept. I slept till wake up due to dizziness!! I was on medical leave for 1 1/2 months. I was so down, so helpless and depressed. Before the ms kicked in, I couldn’t sleep due to stomach bloated and I couldn’t lie down flat!

2nd pregnancy? hmmm…. Not so cold…. No need to wear few layers like alien! I still couldn’t eat and trying so hard not to puke! Very fatigue and dizzy. When hung, like going to die, stomach cramp! If the food is ok, I feel better and just tired need to lie down. But when the food is not ok, I want to throw out and need to lie down immediately. Problem, I don’t know what food is good to me. I couldn’t do anything, just like handicap, I can’t do any house chores and take care my little Smurf. And I look so sick. Friends who doesn’t know I am pregnant, thought I am very sick! I don’t like to talk much like last pregnancy, the tongue always in funny taste!

I know this round ms is better than last pregnancy, but I couldn’t tolerance the hunger and puke!!! I couldn’t take it… it is so suffer. Some friends told me try to think positively, we should glad that we have ms and can get pregnancy. Some people don’t have the chance to have it with numerous tried!!

But I couldn’t think that anymore!! To me, this is traumatic and scary!!! Let’s pray God can help and ms can recover asap! Amen

What temperament type are you?

I was chatting with Litte Man’s Godma… then came out with A type personality. I don’t know what is A or B type personality. So I went to google about it.

Before I did the test, I asked my Regional Finance head, which one I am belong to.

He told me I am from Choleric!

I was like what? What’s that? never heard before! But due to my curiosity, I google again.

Then I came across, 4 type of temperament available. Sanguine, Choleric, Melancholic, Phlegmatic!

So what is Choleric?

“quote:

The choleric temperament is fundamentally ambitious and leader-like. They have a lot of aggression, energy, and/or passion, and try to instill that in others. They are task oriented people and are focused on getting a job done efficiently; their motto is usually “do it now.” They can dominate people of other temperaments with their strong wills, especially phlegmatic types, and can become dictatorial or tyrannical. Many great charismatic military and political figures were cholerics. They like to be in charge of everything and are good at planning, as they often can immediately see a practical solution to a problem. However, they can quickly fall into deep depression or moodiness when failures or

unquote”

Hahaha, this is funny! Anywhere, what’s yours?

Sze Yun – AD

Last year Dec 2012, Sze Yun’s big day….

She is a pretty bride, tall and slim!

This is morning make up!

With the veil….

Me doing the make up

This Dinner!

This is next day, afternoon session with friends.

Congratulation to you Sze Yun! Thanks for trusting in me! Muaks